Hrm. I'm not quite sure to make of something. Actually, that's not entirely true, in that I do know what to make of it.
Lust.
That's the emotion, pure and simple. This boy has caught my attention, and I wanna do all sorts of nasty things to him, but dating may not be one of them. I'm wondering why that is. He's an intriguing enough fellow, he has friends, is social, and is only mildly dysfunctional (for the record, I've given up on trying to find normal men) and he's cute. We seem to get on when seen in social situations, and I go stupid-teenage girl when I'm around him, afraid of being...Well...a stupid teenage girl.
With that said, I'm not sure where to proceed. Cocktails/dancing/casual sex? Dunnow. it's a conrundrum, and one that's making me slightly crazy at the moment. Perhaps it's because my attitude currently is "he who doesn't mingle dies single," so I want to see what's out there before thinking about doing that boyfriend/committed relationship thing. Maybe it's a fear that he won't match me on an intellectual level (and that's a great and very important thing, I've learned.)
The latter isn't established, though. I'm reserving judgment on that point until a closer examination can be made. The way I seem to be going is to see if there is a desire to read a newspaper the next morning over breakfast. Why I consider that to be important, I can't identify, but it seems to be up there in the priorities. *shrug*
I'm thinking it has to do with the time that I'm functional. When the sun peeks through the shades, I'm awake, and I rarely see hours in the evening with double digits. That's not to say that I'm not seen out at night carousing with the boys and girls--I often am. Last relationship found me at odds with that one (I was a day soul; he a night creature)
Perhaps I just think too much.
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If you don't know if he's dating material, he's not.
I haven't read a newspaper in ages.
There's the rub. I think he might be someone worth keeping time with, but I'm reserving judgement. I'm trying very hard to avoid snap decisions.
well if you are only around him socially in a bar environment, I think its alittle hard to find out exactly who they truely are. I recommend a different setting so you can connect with him on another level. Then maybe you can make the descision if he is dating material. I think that alot of behavior is socially induced. I mean you already know what he is like within a social setting. Perhaps Dinner/Cocktails or a Movie. Whatever setting seems suitable to try to see how you connect on an intellectual level. Of course the he has to willing. I think I meet alot of nice guys but half of them don't give you a chance to connect on another level outside of the sexual aspect of it all. But, just my 2 cents worth.
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