Racing pulse

Okay, so here's the deal. I'm out the other night with my dear friend, FA, and we are observed from afar. I don't know that I am attentive to a person to the point where we look like if someone came up and said "Hi, Bob" I'd fall into a fit, but apparently that's the case.

So "no nickname friend" says "I didn't know you were into black guys." I answered, "I'm not. I'm into guys."

So, in prime Bob-like fashion, it launched me into thought. What is it about people of different races that intrigue? Okay, so as previously mentioned, FA is black, African American, or whatever you want to describe him as. I know that he has a penchant for Caucasian guys, or as I prefer to be addressed, "generic cracker." As such, he has seen men that have that fascination with black men, most recently living with a fellow that was actually kind of psychotically so.

So I started thinking, do I have a thing for black guys? I launched into my usual thought, and came up with this conclusion: If I do, then I have a thing for Filipino guys, a thing for Hawaiian guys, a thing for Chinese guys, and (oh yeah) that thing for generic cracker guys such as myself.

I really do have a thing for "just guys" regardless of their ethnicity. Now, it's true that I've seen quite a bit of FA recently. He enjoys my company, and I have to say he is fun to hang out with. He looks good in clothes, carries on an interesting conversation, and has managed to capture my attention.

These days, that has been a difficult thing to do for some reason.

But more than that, he is not a typical person. One of the things that kind of makes me crazy about men of African descent is the fact that a lot of them don't feel comfortable in their own skin. I'm referring to the "dl" thing. Men who have sex with men don't identify as gay, but they identify as being on the "dl." Well, I have news for you. If you sit on it or suck it, you're a fag; it's what we do.

Of course the dl thing isn't restricted to black guys--it's something that is shared across the racial board. There are lots of guys that are "straight, and just in town for the weekend" It causes more damage among men of colour for some reason though. I even saw a book about it at Borders yesterday. That's neither here nor there. FA seems to lack this particular trait, so I don't think of him along ethnic lines. He's just a guy.

and I like guys...mmmm (Homer voice) guys....